Distraction

Have you ever felt so distracted in your mind that you don't know where certain thoughts go and who they belong to or just in general you have know idea what is coming or going, almost to the point of feeling as though your life is just one big puzzle? Make sense? Probably not huh? I'm listening to LeAnn Rimes "What I Cannot Change" this song just gets to me everytime. It's one of those that just hits home with me. It deals with life and dealing with the fact that there are certain things that happen in our lives that we cannot change and we need to let go of that, we need to learn to love what we cannot change, and we need learn to forgive what we cannot change, however we must change what we can change. There are mistakes in our lives that we have made and there is no way we can go back and change them they are completely out of our hands, so we need to learn to let go of the things that we cannot change. We should be able to forgive ourselves of our pasts, love ourselves because of our past because our pasts make us who we are. There are things from my childhood, teenage, and even early adult years that come time mind that I wish I could change. Family problems wishing I could have tried harder to make peace between everyone. Even today I wish there are things in my family I wish I could change but I know it's not my place. Times when I was a teenager when all I wanted to do was please my mom and dad instead of learning who I really was and learning to live my own life and that bleeds into my college years as well. My college days....wow I wish I could go back and change most of everything. I did a lot of stupid things...but again these things are out of my hands and I need to learn to let it go. The hardest thing to is learn that it we doesn't matter what people think of you and if they want to judge you of your past and where you have come from then let them. It's important to know that you cannot go and live your life constantly wondering what people are thinking about you. You need to live your life for yourself and for God. God has everyone go through certain things in our lives for a reason. Whether it is send you over a few speed bumps in life or send you flying on cloud 9, he has you go through it all for growth and for your faith in him. Everything is in his hands though, and nothing should matter in your life at all knowing that. Give everything up to him, and let it all go. Just let it go...