I won't let go

This song reminds me of Christ and what all He has done, is doing and will continue to do for me no matter what the circumstances. It's nice to know that even through the storm and when life gets hard He is there to hold me and it's so encouraging to know that He will never let go.

It's like a storm

That cuts a path

It breaks your will

It feels like that

You think you're lost

But you're not lost on your own

You're not alone

I will stand by you

I will help you through

When you've done all that you can do

and you can't cope

I will dry your eyes

I will fight your fight

I will hold you tight

and I won't let go

It hurts my heart to see you cry

I know it's dark, this part of life

Oh it finds us all and we're too small

to stop the rain

Oh but when it rains

I will stand by you

I will help you through

When you've done all that you can do

and you can't cope

I will dry your eyes

I will fight your fight

I will hold you tight

and I won't let go

Don't be afraid to fall

I'm right here to catch you

I won't let you down

It's won't get you down

You're gonna make it

I know you can make it

Cause I will stand by you

I will help you through

When you've done all that you can do

and you can't cope

I will dry your eyes

I will fight your fight

I will hold you tight

and I won't let go.

Rascal Flatts-I won't let go.

This is the Stuff

This song is me to the core, and I love listening to it over and over to remind me that the stuff that happens in my life is so little compared to the love Christ has given me, and that no matter what goes on or what happens He will continue to bless. :)

I lost my keys in the great unknown

And call me please, cuz I can't find my phone

This is the stuff that drives me crazy

This is the stuff that's getting to me lately

In the middle of my little mess

I forget how big I'm blessed

This is the stuff that gets under my skin

But I gotta trust You know exactly what You're doing

It might not be what I would choose

But this is the stuff that You use

45 in a 35

Sirens and fines while I'm running behind

whoa

This is the stuff that drives me crazy

This is the stuff that's getting to me lately

In the middle of my little mess

I forget how big I'm blessed

This is the stuff that gets under my skin

But I gotta trust You know exactly what You're doing

It might not be what I would choose

But this is the stuff You use

So break me of impatience

Conquer my frustrations

I've got a new appreciation

It's not the end of the world

This is the stuff that drives me crazy

This is the stuff

Someone save me

In the middle of my little mess

I forget how big I'm blessed

This is the stuff that gets under my skin

And I've gotta trust You know exactly what You're doing

It might not be what I would choose

But this is the stuff You use

This is the stuff You use...

-Francesca Battistelli

A Story...

I was reading the end of a section in my devotional this morning and there is a story in there that really hit home to me. This past week I've been reading about lies and how much Satan is the father of all lies and how important it is for us to lean and depend on our God for truth. Satan is always putting lies in our head that I know that in myself always believe. It states in Hebrews 6:18 that "it is impossible for God to lie." I don't know about you but that's encouraging to know that my Father will never lie to me and that I can always count on Him for truth.

Here's the story:

"It was the day before Thanksgiving, and John and I were trying to pack our stuff before leaving for the long weekend. Naturally, the day was a bit more stressful than normal and my senses were somewhat heightened. I can't even remember what happened, except that John and I got into some sort of an argument that we never really discussed until later that day in the car. I remember getting angrier and more emotional as the minutes wore on. Somewhere in our discussion I realized that I had been imagining and acting out scenarios in my mind that hadn't actually happened, yet I proceeded as if they had.

In a moment it all clicked in my head that I CONSTANTLY believe LIES!!! I know this may sound obvious, but for so long I was thinking about the "big" lies that we believe: "you're not good enough," "So and so sings way better than you," "Nobody really likes you." These, to me, are the clear and obvious lies from Satan, but sometimes it's harder to discern the other constant, little lies that connect to the "big lies", the ones that help accomplish the goal of us believing those big ones.

To give you a better idea of what this looks like, sometimes I find myself playing out a sitution that's happened in real life and then start adding to it in my mind. Like what the person involved in the siutation might have been thinking when they responded a certain way, or what their motives were behind their actions. Really, when it gets right down to it, I realize that most of the time they weren't thinking those things at all. I allow my emotions and actions to be dictated as a result of believing that what I fream up in my head has actually happenend.

I have always known that one of Satan's major tactics is to deceive and lie to us. I guess I never realized that these "small" imaginations that capture my brain ARE the major LIES that I believe. I then allow those lies to negatively taint my attitude. My responses and treatment of others turn sour, emotional wellbeing is severely damaged, overall mental ahppiness is challenged, and on and on....you get the picture.

I think one of the reasons that this discovery has been so huge for me is becuase I have really been struggling with being unhappy about my overall attitude, whether it's an outward response or just an internal attitude. I feel like I now have a new weapon to battle the root of where this is coming from. I now can identify what's going on in my head and walk away from the lies, even though sometimes they're subtle." -From "No Other God's

Like I said this story hit pretty close to home with me because I am that person that she is describing. I am always thinking "i will or am not ever going to be good enough in music" or in any other hobby that I pick up, someone is always going to be better than me so why try? For years upon years my parents have always told me that I am good enough. I always thought they had to say that kind of stuff because they're my parents. We all think that, don't deny it...but they don't have to say that stuff to me, but yet they do and I have always let the lies of Satan come in and destroy their words in my head by filling it up with garbage and telling me otherwise. OR when I am overanalyzing things...all women know what I'm talking about. We ALL overanalyze everything and I truly do make up stories in my head that are lies and I start to believe them. Someone looked at me a certain way today they must be mad at me, what did I do and then it just snowballs. There are other situations I won't go into, but you know what i'm talking about. We are constantly believing lies, everyday! How does that make God feel? We are so quick to believe what Satan has to tell us (which again are lies) but we can't even begin to stop and believe what God has told us, which is the truth.

Something to think about today...

Just Isaac

These lyrics were in my Bible study today and in the study we were talking about the story of Sarah and Abraham and how Sarah got so impatient with the Lord when it came to having children that she decided to take it upon herself and believe that she could bear life through her servant by using her husband. We all know the story, it turned out disaterious, Hagar did conceived a son named Ishmael and Sarah grew a hatred towards her...eventually the Lord gave Sarah her son, Isaac. All in all, we need to look at, other than God, who or what are we trying to build our life through? If we are trying to build our life through someone else or depending on someone else so much that it starts effecting our lives, those people/things become idols to us. Live your life through Christ, depend on Him and only Him. He will give you what you need in His time. Wait patiently on Him, so we have more "Isaacs" and not so many "Ishmaels" and maybe not so many will get hurt in the process.

JUST ISAAC

I couldn't blame her for striving
I'd do the same thing if I were driving
With a half view and a wild tale
Delivered by an angel

I've been so tired for the waiting
Thought I was crazy or at best mistaken
As the sun set down on a thousand nights
With everyone a pieces of me dies for...

CHORUS
Just Isaac, nothing more
Just your promise and not my forced, crude hands helping out
Adding stuff till it crashes down
Just Isaac, nothing more
Just your promise and not my forced, mixed blessings and surprises
When everything I ever wanted was just Isaac

Complications and Ishmaels
Why couldn't I believe that you'd be faithful
That you'll have your way, either way
With all my extras or just plain...

CHORUS

Song in my devotional

First in My Heart


So this is love, it feels like war
To slay my gods by the sword
Making room for you to dwell
Here inside of me unrivaled
Through it costs me everything
Only you will be

CHORUS
First in my heart, first in my mind
And in everything I love for in this life
First in my dreams, first inmy eyes
before every other love that I desire

So settle in and you never mind
These trembling hands, these teary eyes
Cause I never knew it'd hurt so bad
To turn my back upon this golden falf
Let its memory fade away
Till only you remain

CHORUS

Take these idols a million miles
From the allegiance of my soul
Fill this hunger with your wonder
Till only you will be

CHORUS


-Kelly Minter


Lord may you wash me clean from these idols that consume me. Following idols are only worthless for me. You never fade you never change unlike these idols that I have attached my heart. May I follow you and only you.

Long time overdue...

I apologize for the delay I have two blogs and I can barely keep one of them updated let alone two. Heard a song today that just keeps playing over and over in my head. One of those that just never seems to leave your mind. Here's the song...

FREE-Zac brown band

so we live in our old van

travel all across this land

me and you

we'll end up hand in hand

somewhere down on the sand

me and you

just as free

free as we'll ever be

just as free

free as we'll ever be

drive until the city lights

dissolve into a country sky

just me and you

lay underneath the georgia moon

do all the things that lovers do

just me and you

just as free

free as we'll ever be

just as free

free as we'll ever be

ever be

no we don't have a lot of money

no we don't have a lot of money

no we don't have a lot of money

all we need is love

free as we'll ever be

just as free

free as we'll ever be

ever be

so we live in our old van

travel all across this land

me and you

Enjoy! :)

Caedmon's Call "LOVE ALONE"

No one would love me
if they knew all the things I hide
My words fall to the floor
As tears drip through the telephone line

And the hands I’ve seen raised to the sky
Not waving but drowning all this time
I'll try to build an ark that they need
To float to you upon the crystal sea

Chorus:
Give me your hand to hold
'Cause I can't stand to love alone
And love alone is not enough to hold us up
We've got to touch your robe
So swing your robe down low
Swing your robe down low

The prince of despair's been beaten
But the loser still fights
Death's on a long leash
Stealing my friends to the night

And everyone cries for the innocent
You say to love the guilty too
And I'm surrounded by suffering and sickness
So I'm working tearing back the roof

Repeat Chorus

And the pain of the world is a burden
And it's my cross to bear
And I stumble under all the weight
I know you're Simon standing there
And I know you're standing there